What If?

How often do we torture ourselves with "what if" questions? How often do we look back at a situation and ask "what if I just . . . . (done, said, thought, been . . . different)???"

But what are the bigger "what if" questions?

What if my actions, and the events in my life aren't really who I am?

What if my thoughts aren’t really mine? What if they are a creation of the world I live in? The society values that helped shape me? The parents that brought me up? The experiences I’ve had and the messages I’ve heard and internalized without sufficient filters?

What if I’m not wrong – just because no one agrees with me . . . or What if I’m not right just because everyone does? More profoundly, what if it really doesn’t matter if I’m wrong or right? What if being right isn’t a measure of any part of my worth, including my sanity?

What if truly I am a manifestation of the divine? What if I really do have a message to carry to the world and I have a responsibility to step up to that plate? What if it doesn’t matter whether I do or not – I can still be a whole and worthy and loveable person if I do nothing?

What if I really am special? What if I’m not?

What if . . I am as special as everyone else????

What if my path in this life is to walk alone? What if it’s not? How different does my vision look? How different are my choices?

What if I can’t know what my path is until I accept that I can’t know?

What if the very process of asking the questions is the purpose, the path . . . and here I am on it.